Monday, April 30, 2007

There...

Last week, I had an epiphany! It was not a divine manifastation per se, it was just an insight on the things I had been missing out. I have completely convinced myself that this year will be 'da year'. I won't think and rethink too much about some of my wills.

I'd said that I wouldn't keep being sedentary anymore... and that is why I took the chance of taking up boxing. I've been enjoying it way way much. This sport was totally made for me.

While paying for lunch at a Chinese place, I noticed a brochure of a Chinese language school lying on this restaurant counter. I love languages and have always tried to learn several... So I thought: "Why not one more?" I started my Chinese course two weeks ago and I'm already having a blast with it.

Another thing, I got this sudden urge of getting a short haircut. I looked everywhere at all girls and women in this country and I figured that they all have the same hairstyle. I was not born to look the same - so so so sorry! It's trimmed down above the shoulders with assimetric layers... My hair is more like me that it has ever been (The picture shows my hair not the way I actually style it... my camera battery needs recharging!).

The last will is getting a tattoo. I've already decided on the drawing but not where to place it on my body. That'll I leave it for later. It's holiday in Brazil - I've got to celebrate it by doing nothing on the couch - except for watching a movie and having wine(colder temperatures have knocked on my door, finally).

PS: I don't know why this got posted twice.

Sunday, April 29, 2007

And this was the way I woke up this morning...

...crooked jaw and shorter hair!
I've already fixed my jaw... Can't say the same about the hair


Last week, I had an epiphany! It was not a divine manifastation per se, it was just an insight on the things I had been missing out. I have completely convinced myself that this year will be 'da year'. I won't think and rethink too much about some of my wills. If I really want to do something that might sound crazy, I will do it no matter what...

I'd said that I wouldn't keep being sedentary anymore... I had already mentioned it countless times. I've found a great small gym near my place that offers all kinds of workouts. That is why I took the chance of taking up boxing. It's been almost two months of practice. I've been enjoying it way way much. This sport was totally made for me.

While paying for lunch at a Chinese place next to my house too, I noticed a brochure of a Chinese language school lying on this restaurant counter. I love languages and have always tried to learn several of them... So I thought: "Why not one more?" I started my Chinese course two weeks ago and I'm already having a blast with it.

Another thing, I got this sudden urge of getting a short haircut. I looked everywhere at all girls and women in this country and I figured that they all have the same hairstyle. I was not born to look the same - so so so sorry! It's trimmed down above the shoulders with assimetric layers... My hair is more like me that it has ever been (The picture on this post shows my hair not the way I actually style it... my camera battery needs recharging!).

The last will is getting a tattoo. I've already decided on the drawing but not where to place it on my body. That one I'll leave it for later. Today is holiday in Brazil - I've got to celebrate it by doing nothing on the couch - except for watching a movie and having wine(colder temperatures have knocked on my door, finally).

Damn that I can't go out for now... still waiting for some guys to get our new gate installed.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Smile, babe



Gotta smile. Oughtta do it more often. Do it! Do it! Do it and don't ask why!

It's hard being a teacher. I am aware that this statement is way obvious yet only could I realize the obviousness of it this week. I was literally harassed by a student of mine last Monday. It wasn't easy to go through humiliation and all. I won't tell details of that circumstance because I am to forget it though. I just can say that I've got to teach a troublemaker that I wish I didn't. What's left to do is get over it. What's left to do is get over it without turning a blind eye on it. I am definitely communicating that student's parents. I am absolutely answering it back. And then, only then I'll smile to my victory. Fuck yeah!

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Easter, Movies and Photos

Easter is a traditionally boring holiday in my deepest sense. It's been a long time that that loser Easter Bunny does not communicate well with me. You know what? I am actually lucky since I am not very crazy about chocolate and all.

According to my family's belief I was not supposed to eat meat last Friday. I had chicken parmeggiana and a wonderful carbonara pasta as a side dish. Then, as I left a restaurant I went to on Easter Sunday, I got bitten by a mysterious insect and my right hand started swelling this morning... I wonder if that is a way Jesus has found to punish me for having eaten chicken on a Good Friday.

The weekend was a bit longer as I didn't work on both Friday and Saturday. I watched and rewatched several movies such as The Scent of a Woman, Barfly, Aviator, Lost in Translation, and Taxi Driver. "Aviator" and "Lost in Translation" were my very first timers and the others were seen for the Gizillionth time.

Except for the Leo DiCaprio's flick, the remaining ones had one thing in common: FLATTEN IMAGES. People were standing not too far from the cameras with harsh light-dark contrasts... I felt as I was watching a collection of old photos. I care for those subtle things in movies. Those weekend films reminded me of dowloading "Sid and Nancy." Not that this Alex Cox's movie is a subtle production, it is in fact filled with grainy images that for sure enrich the documentarylike feature that that movie has got.

On the other hand, Roberto felt like watching "300" at the theater. I know it sure is a terrific epic with outstanding war scenes however I am not quite fond of those huge films. I could not go, period. I have already seen a few war movies that I ended up enjoying a great deal which were Gladiator, Apocalypse Now, Jarhead, and some others that I can't remember their titles in English, however these were unique films and they don't quite tell stories of wars.

Besides movies, I've had some fun modeling for Carla Kuse, a student of mine who happens to be begining on photography field, she'd asked me to pose for her and for sure the answer would not be "NO". Here I'm posting some of my favorites...


My Swollen fingers can't be seen on those photos... relief!

Monday, April 9, 2007

One more "Poetry Tuesday"

i carry your heart with me
by e. e. cummings

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Self-portrait Tuesday and Poetry



EDEN REVISITED

at a secret moment of space
close to the invisible gate
we take off everything on us

our garments

our masks

our skins

our senses and souls

take all off, until we take off
our very selfhoods
just to have a peep
into the green fields
where adam and eve started
to cover their private parts


by Changming Yuan

Wording Tuesday

scaf·fold·ing ˈskafəldiNG/ noun a temporary structure on the outside of a building, made usually of wooden planks and metal poles, used b...