Meanwhile, here in my little world of chemical unbalances, I've been having some sort of spiritual awakening that is hard to explain what it is and how it has affected me. Nevertheless, I will do my best to tell you my entire "spiritual awakening" story, from the beginning until now. I have been advised by tarot readers, palmistry readers, African religion guides, my astrologist, my numerologist and even myself about my possible having psychic powers since forever, and thus it is important that I seek for spiritual growth.
I can say that I myself have noticed strange things in me for I've always had vivid dreams about things that would happen later, or I'd dream of people who later would tell me me they had dreamed of me the night before as well. And these dreams that I call "simultaneous dreams" even coincide in settings and all sorts of details. I literally control my dreams too. That doesn't happen often anymore, though. It was more common in the past, before I started taking prescribed psycho-active drugs. Back in the days, I could set the narrative of my dreams, the timing, the plot, and I would end it if it became a night terror. I would fly if I wanted to. I'd even kiss any specific celebrity if I wanted to. I have dreamed of my deceased grandfather. The last time I saw him in a dream was the night he actually died. He left messages to my grandma and my aunt... They both took care of him until he died of Parkinson's and its complications on aged patients.
"Sleep* is the emancipation of the mind: while we are asleep our spirit loosens its ties to matter and wanders the spiritual world. Because of it, it is theoretically possible—although uncommon—to see the spirit of a living person as an apparition." KARDEC, from The Book on Mediums.
I have been into TAOISM recently. Well, not so recently. I received TAO in 2010 and since Taoism arrived in my life, I have lived alcohol free for over 4 years and I have gone semi-vegetarian for nearly 2 years. Funny I should mention these things in this entry because I was not aware of how widely this ancient philosophy has changed my life. True that that "religion" has affected me, on one hand. On the other, Spiritism or Kardecism, I prefer the latter name, had come about in my life many years before TAO, more precisely a few months prior I moved to the USA. Kardecism is known in 35 countries worldwide. It's based on books by a psychic medium called Allan Kardec, a French educator from the 1800's. I have read four of all his books on Spiritism.
It all started when I was 21 years old, graduated, unemployed, and in between countries. There has always been this newsstand by the main square in my hometown. I had not been aware that that place sold only Kardecist reads. I'd pass by that newsstand every day walking back from school and nothing had caught my attention for many years.Two months before moving to the USA, back in 1997, the newsstand owner called me from distance and handed me THE BOOK ON MEDIUMS. He said, "It will be a good read during your trip abroad." Okay. The guy did not know me. It was sort of impossible for him to know that I had a trip abroad planned and paid. Well. Maybe it was quite possible due to my hometown has never been a city. Everybody knows about everybody's business. Anywho. But why me? Why that book? I know Kardec wrote many others which I happen to have them all on my Kindle now.
|I can say I became 100% Buddhist at the age of 11|
|I even got a tattoo inspired by this photo earlier this year|