Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Friday, September 22, 2006
MY ROOTS, SO TO SPEAK, HAVE NEVER BEEN DEFINED FOR REAL.
WHERE DO I COME FROM?
WHAT ARE MY GENES MADE OF?
AM I GOING TO LAST LONG?
HAVE I GAINED GENETIC ILLNESSES THAT I AM ACTUALLY NOT AWARE OF?
DO I HAVE TO KILL PART OF ME SO THAT THE REST MAY LIVE IN PEACE?
JUST KNOW THAT I AM NOT AS HARD AS ROCK
I TRY TO BE GENTLE MOST OF THE TIMES
SOME SAY I AM PRETTY BUT IT'S ONLY ABOUT THE FACE
I'M NOT HANDICAPPED, TRUE
NOT A BLIND PERSON EITHER
HAVE GOT NO CROOKED TEETH AND AIN'T A DWARF AS WELL
I EVEN HAVE PROPER HEARING SKILLS
AND I DO TRY TO MAKE MY LIVING DECENTLY
BUT I ALSO KNOW THAT I DON'T DRESS NEATLY AT ALL TIMES
I DO NOT MANICURE MY NAILS AND I DO THINK THAT BRAZILIAN BIKINI WAX IS PURE CHINESE TORTURE
I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF LIFE
DOES ANYONE KNOW? THEN, PLEASE CONTACT ME BY E-MAIL.
WHERE THE HELL AM I GOING AFTERWARDS?
DEATH: NOT SO MANY PEOPLE LIKE TO TALK ABOUT THIS
EVEN THOUGH IT IS THE MOST ANCIENT TOPIC.
DEATH IS MONSTROUSLY OLD AND NEW EACH DAY.
IT IS FASTER THAN HURRICANES AND GREATER THAN SUPERLATIVES.
RELIGIONS EXIST IN ORDER TO AGREE WITH DEATH.
IT IS SPOOKY TO SPECULATE ABOUT ITS EMPTINESS.
EVENTUALLY, IT IS A DISCOVERY.
DO I FEAR DEATH?
DEATH OF OTHERS, THAT'S FOR SURE.
I FEAR THE FACT THAT ALL THOSE WHOM I LOVE WON'T LIVE LONG.
MY OWN DEATH?
I HATE IT THOUGH.
I LOATHE THE FACT THAT I WON'T BE WRITING ANYMORE.
I DESPISE TO KNOW THAT I WON'T BE SEEING AND SEEN ANY LONGER
I EXECRATE THE IDEA THAT I WILL LOVE AND BE LOVED NO MORE
NO MORE DRUNKENNESS
FORGET WILD PARTIES
AND UNLEARN BUTTERFLIES IN THE STOMACH
WHAT IS THAT ALL FOR?
AND I WONDER WHY.
by Laila Chris
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Have you ever had a cold or allergy attack that wouldn't go away? If so, there's a good chance you actually had sinusitis, like I've had. According to this site, experts estimate that millions of people are afflicted with sinusitis every year. That number may be pretty higher, since the symptoms of bacterial sinusitis frequently mimic those of colds or allergies, and many sufferers never seek a doctor (again, like me) for proper diagnosis and treatment with an antibiotic. I must confess that I did not see a physician for I was so sure that all I was having was a mere allergy or a light cold but it became worse and worse. Then, I got way worried. I figured my real condition through internet research and talking to lots of people who were going through the same stuff. As a result, I did self-medicate with antibiotics which I called "treatment" and that is really helping me get over this disease. However, I do agree that seeing a doctor is the best choice since only x-rays can show whether physical obstructions have taken place into the facial bones. As I had never had that kind of condition before, I could not tell at first the difference from having a terrible flu or if that was actually sinusitis until I started having acute headaches and a slimmy green nasal discharge (uhm... I can't wait to have pistachio ice cream.) The other symptoms were fatigue and irritability. I did not feel like working but I had to. I did not feel like talking but I had to. I did not feel like leaving my bed but I had no other choice. The worst was a non-stop coughing reaction. I sounded like an old seaman who smoked for 50 years and had rum for breakfast since his childhood. And don't get me started on the facial pain every time I had to cough or even breathe. That explains why I had been away from blogging too. Luckily, all these things are over thanks to antibiotics. The strongest symptoms are fading and soon I'll publish my "shoes meme" that Lori had tagged me and more. Lastly, I very much want that pistachio ice cream so bad - No Joke.
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