I've played with death way too much this year. 2017 has got to end. To me, it is already over. I've had a few suicidal attempts, I had a miscarriage, and then, a few weeks ago, we had a bad, a very bad car accident up on the hills in the south of Brazil. Our car almost fell off a super high rocky cliff. Seriously, my guard angels are there for me, with no jokes.
No doubts about it, but wishing to die is not on my list anylonger. As simple as that: the end was too close and I am not in the mood to say that I am scared of dying, because I am not. Never been. Never will. I even have a eulogy already written and published on the my side screen posts here on this blog... However, it is not fair to wish to pass away. I am just way overwhelmed on this messy life of mine, but it has always been messy, so who cares?
Dunno where I belong to.
Dunno if I am doing a good job in life. I just know that in a country where there are more than 14 Million unemployed, I find myself holding five jobs, and apparently I have to consider that as a blessing. In the world where you pray to die and let the psychological pain disappear, God sends you the chance to go, but you actually stay, that is another kind of signal. Dunno.
I am getting closer to have my poetry book manuscript getting done and I will soon (not so soon) be able to have it for real, that is another signal that things are walking straight and head for the right place, wherever there might be.
Cheers,
L.C.B.
No doubts about it, but wishing to die is not on my list anylonger. As simple as that: the end was too close and I am not in the mood to say that I am scared of dying, because I am not. Never been. Never will. I even have a eulogy already written and published on the my side screen posts here on this blog... However, it is not fair to wish to pass away. I am just way overwhelmed on this messy life of mine, but it has always been messy, so who cares?
Dunno where I belong to.
Dunno if I am doing a good job in life. I just know that in a country where there are more than 14 Million unemployed, I find myself holding five jobs, and apparently I have to consider that as a blessing. In the world where you pray to die and let the psychological pain disappear, God sends you the chance to go, but you actually stay, that is another kind of signal. Dunno.
I am getting closer to have my poetry book manuscript getting done and I will soon (not so soon) be able to have it for real, that is another signal that things are walking straight and head for the right place, wherever there might be.
Cheers,
L.C.B.
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